i haven't done this whole blog thing in a while. i doubt many people will actually read this. i'll post thoughts...and probably some of my photography as well. you never know. i just felt like i wanted to write and so here i am.
sometimes i feel forced into being a grown up. i'm not ready for all of this yet. i'm not ready to deal with real life sometimes. but how can i grow up unless i run into things and just deal? at least i'm trying to learn how to deal. i hope i'm doing okay.
on a side note....i have amazing friends. AMAZING friends. it is so so good to feel that way. it's been too long since i've had good friends here in ruston with me. but i think i've finally reached that point.
on another side note...i found my old poem...i think the last poem i've ever written...and it just seemed to somewhat describe some of what i'm feeling now. so here we go again...
Fears oppressing
Heart confessing
Thoughts distressing
Stop this obsessing
Body aching
Hands shaking
Thoughts mistaking
I am breaking
Silent obscenity
Shattered identity
Haunting memory
Desperate for serenity
Hopeless seeking
Insides shrieking
Everyone critiquing
Afraid of speaking
Never complying
Spirit dying
Constantly crying
Truth is lying
life is a slap in the face sometimes. but i know i can overcome these obstacles. God is good and faithful. He is my strength and i cannot forget that.
i will not forget.
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