Thursday, September 20, 2007

scanograms.

this is my latest work from my digital photography class. they're scanograms...pictures made with a scanner instead of a camera. it's a lot of fun and there's a lot you can do with it. i hope you like it (if anyone is actually reading this).





Wednesday, September 12, 2007

"welcome home" - shaun groves

take me
make me all You want me to be
that's all i'm asking
all i'm asking

welcome to this heart of mine
i've buried under prideful vines
grown to hide the mess i've made
inside of me
come decorate, Lord
open up the creaking door
and walk upon the dusty floors
scrape away the guilty stains
until no sin or shame remain
spread your love upon the walls
and occupy the empty halls
until the man i am has faded
no more doors are barricaded

come inside this heart of mine
it is not my own
make it home
come and take this heart and make it
all Your own
welcome home

take a seat
pull up a chair
forgive me for the disrepair
and the souvenirs from floor to ceiling
gathered on my search for meaning
every closet's filled with clutter
messes yet to be discovered
i'm overwhelmed
i understand
i can't make this place all that You can

come inside this heart of mine
it is not my own
make it home
come and take this heart and make it
all Your own
welcome home

i took this space that You places in me
redecorated in shades of greed
and i made sure every door stayed locked
every window blocked
and still You knocked

well...come inside this
heart of mine
it's not my own
make it home
come and take this heart and make it all Your own
welcome home...

take me
make me
all You want me to be
that's all i'm asking
all i'm asking

Monday, September 10, 2007

back to reality.

i'm back to life as a college kid once again. school is officially back in full swing. i realized today that i got spoiled rotten last year as far as classes are concerned. i really didn't have any difficult classes. the hardest thing was art history. now i'm facing a quarter jam packed full of work. i think i'm going to learn a lot, so that's a good feeling about the whole thing. i just don't know how much free time i'm actually going to have. i have a minimum of 20 hours a week at starbucks. close to 24 hours a week of class. plus homework. and i want to be able to do chi alpha services and crossroads community group. i just don't know where it's all going to fit. crazy crazy. i think i'll be okay. i just have to kick it into high gear. i'm excited about all of the challenges i'll be facing in my classes...mainly my painting class and my photography class. i'm not really very skilled at painting. i mean, i can do well enough to get by. so i really hope that i can learn a lot and improve a lot this quarter. i really have enjoyed the previous painting i have done...so i'd like to be good at it. i think my photo class is gonna be pretty hardcore. i'll hopefully be learning a lot more about the conceptual end of photography. that's something i haven't really pushed myself in, and i think it will open so many doors for me. i also hope i learn a lot more about the technical photography stuff. i just want to keep growing in my knowledge of photography and hopefully make some really great photos.

in other news...jonathan is back! hooray! it is so wonderful. i love him so incredibly much. we got to go to six flags in dallas on saturday. it was so much fun. it was just the two of us, and we rode rollercoasters ALL day long. 10 hours. it was amazing. i am still sore and stiff, but it was worth it. i'm glad we got to do a trip like that before we got too busy. i hope that we can find time to spend together even though we're both going to be insanely busy with school and work. he starts applying and interviewing for jobs soon...real jobs. like a career. it's pretty scary...and i'm not the one looking for a job. i know he's going to do so great. i just hope he can find something close by. i don't want to be far away from him. it's too hard. not fun at all.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

dear drew,

i can't stop thinking about you today. my heart is completely overwhelmed...emotions from every end of the spectrum. i wish you were here. i miss you so much. i wish we had gotten to hang out more these last two years. i guess being in two different towns makes that pretty difficult. but i've always known i could count on you as a friend...no matter how much time or distance separated us. you have such a big heart. and you have never stopped sharing it. you can make any person smile...whether it's with humor or just the joy that radiates from you. i miss wednesday mornings at francois...and the endless movie adventures. and it makes me sad that we can't do that anymore. but i'm happy at the same time because you are so much better off than me. we sang a song in church today about being freed from chains and what it's like to live in freedom. you are experiencing that first hand! i can't even begin to imagine that, drew. i can't wait for that feeling. so while it is so sad to be here, missing you, i can have peace in knowing how amazing your life is right now. freedom beyond understanding. you waited on the Lord, drew...and now you have a new and awesome strength in Him. you are RUNNING without ever becoming weary...WALKING and not growing faint. drew...YOU'RE WALKING. that amazes me every single time i think about it. that's what makes me cry more than anything...but it's crying out of joy, not sorrow. i miss you so much, drewster. i really do. but i know that one day i will see you again. you lived a life here on earth that has been an example to so many people. i am encouraged every single day by your joy, your passion, your strength, your willingness, and your huge and loving heart. thanks for being such an amazing friend. you are extremely missed, but also extremely loved.

Love,
Hannah